Tuesday, 31 December 2013


2013 is a year of great changes and acceleration of growth.
We go through life limiting ourselves, thinking we cannot hear, therefore we cannot dance.
When we start feeling instead of struggling to hear, we start listening to the whispers of our higher self.
Like the deaf dancers of the thousand handed Guan Yin, we can then start to dance to the daily cues of our lives.

Wednesday, 23 October 2013

Courtesy Visit from the Giants Part 2

Continuing from Courtesy Visit from the Giants Part 1.
The Hypogeum
The day after, I remembered about a curious incident that happened in Malta in 1939.  It was documented in National Geographic but no one knows what really happened.
A curious book bought from someone documenting the event of Miss Lois Jessup
There is an account that in the 1940s a British embassy worker, Miss Lois Jessup, went on a tour of the Hypogeum and persuaded a guide to let her explore a 3 ft. square "burial chamber" next to the floor of the lowest room in the last [3rd] sub-level. 

She claims that after squeezing through this chamber she came into a large room; where she was standing there was a large cliff with a steep drop and the floor of the cavern could not be seen. 
Across the cavern there was a small ledge with an opening in the wall. According to Ms. Jessup, a number of "humanoid beings" that were covered in white hair and hunched over came out of this opening. 
They raised their palms in her direction and a large gust of wind filled the cavern, extinguishing the light of her candle. She then claimed that she felt something brush past her. 

When she went back to the Hypogeum on another occasion, she was told no such tour guide had ever worked on the site.

Sometime after Miss Jessup's first visit, a group of school children and their teacher visited the Hypogeum on an outing and entered the same burial chamber, which then collapsed while they were inside. 
Search parties could not conduct a thorough search for the children or their teacher due to the cave-in. 
The parents of the children claimed that, for weeks, they could hear the voices of their young children coming from under the ground in several parts of the island.
According to National Geographic's Ancient X-Files there are no local newspaper reports or accounts from residents about the missing children, making it more likely this was an invented story.
It was asserted that for weeks afterwards the wailing and screaming of children was heard underground in different parts of the island, but no one could locate the sources of the cries.

Click this link to read more:
Malta Temples

I don't own the pictures above.

Monday, 21 October 2013

Courtesy Visit from the Giants Part 1

It was a quiet summer night, soft, silvery light from the full moon graced my room. 
I sat in meditation, as usual and was soon drifting within, so calm and serene. 
This night’s meditation, however, was to be a short one. 
I felt heaviness in the room, as if being watched by invisible beings, was not scary at all but weird in a way. 
I felt shadows moving in my room and I was sure could even hear their invisible ethereal footsteps. 
I opened my eyes after some time, all was quiet, the moonlight still there softly lighting my room, all was quiet except for the heavy air.
I felt these presences as if they were giants of some sort…but I was not scared at all.

I became aware that my apartment block stands very near a very ancient megalithic temple and burial caves. 
I couldn't help but smile at the fantasy of the thought… 

Thursday, 3 October 2013

Pebbles On The Sand

I love to meditate by the sea, sometimes I share my thoughts and longings with it too.

I remember once i decided to go and walk on the beach, it was early summer. 
I walked by the edge where the sand was moist so that I would leave my footprints and every now and then I look back and look at the pattern.

There were young children playing, building sand castles and gathering tiny pebbles to embellish their constructions.  Their enthusiastic laughter  mingled with cries from the seagulls, they were so happy.
I stopped to feel the rising sun on my shoulders and the soft breeze and also to smell the sea. Tiny waves were kissing my toes as if they were extended fingers of the sea inviting me to play with them. 
I picked up a pebble on the sand and it seemed it knew my hand.  The rhythm of my breathing matched the rhythm of the incoming waves...I felt one with the sea and the pebble and the sun. 
It was all a song of creation...a song of Being-ness. 
I bent down and wrote on the soft sand, "I am in love with you" as if talking to the sea.
Like a little child, I skimmed the pebble on the sea, like an acknowledgment to the sea...or was it a way of communicating with it?
After some time, oblivious of the passing time, I noticed the waves gaining more momentum...due to the rising sun, I suppose.  
When I came back from my pleasant reverie, I noticed that the waves have crumbled the castles and that now my writing on the sand said only, "I am...". I could not help but smile, looked at the sea and sent a loving imaginary hug. 
I turned back to return home...all my footprints were erased by the sea.  I felt so much love that my eyes watered and a tear drop fell in the sea, carried away by the waves mingling with the ocean. 
Yes, I am one...always, am one with the Source. 

Tuesday, 1 October 2013

FREE: Pattern- Two Tone Brimmed Beanie

For crown measurement 60cm (XL)

- Bamboo Yarn (70% cotton, 30% bamboo yarn) 3 skeins of 50gr each (2 main colour, 1 contrasting colour)
- Crochet hook size 3mm
- Patience

- Crown diameter
- Drop height to bottom of ear
- Desired brim width

Stitches needed:
- Chain = ch
- Single Crochet (on the magic ring if not doing chain for the first row) = sc
- Slip Stitch = ss
- Double Crochet = dc
- Front Post Double Crochet = fpdc
- Back Post Double Crochet = bpdc

- I followed "Basic Double Crochet hat with instructions on how to make a hat a great fit every time" (on her page, scroll down for free pdf file Bobwilson123)/ "Basic Beanie" (youtube video) for the crown, with a bit of modification.
Instead of chaining and joining the chain to form a circle at the beginning, I made a magic circle ("Crochet Geek" on youtube has an excellent library of these basic crochet technique) and made the needed stitches for the first row.
Here I made:
Row 1: 12 sc on the magic circle, ss to first stitch, 1 sc, ch 1 (instead of ch 3, do not count as stitch)
Row 2: increase row, 2 dc on each sc (total 24 dc), ss, 1 sc, ch 1
Row 3: *1 dc on first stitch, 2 dc on second stitch* repeat *to* (total 36 dc), ss, 1sc, ch 1
Row 4: *1 dc on first stitch, 1 dc on second stitch, 2 dc on third stitch* repeat *to*(total 48 dc), ss, 1sc, ch 1
Row 5: *1dc on first stitch, 1 dc on second stitch, 1 dc on third stitch, 2 dc on fourth stitch* repeat *to* (total 60 dc), ss, 1sc, ch 1
I continued the increasing pattern until Row 15 (total 180 dc), after ss, 1sc, ch 1, I start the cross stitch pattern.  This stitch pattern will only work with even numbered stitches.

- The pattern I used was the "Cross Stitch Hat" (on her page, scroll down for free pdf file Bobwilson123)/ "Cross Stitch Hat" (youtube video).
Here I made the cross stitch pattern from Row 16 to Row 31.
Since this is for the side of the head, no increase is made within this section, you should still end up with the same number of stitches you started with after you stop the increase round, i.e. I ended up with 180 stitches.

- The contrasting colour is added after you do the first fpdc at the start of the brim row.
Row 32: *main colour fpdc on first stitch, ss to join contrasting colour fpdc on second stitch* repeat *to*, take both yarn when ss, 1sc, ch 1
Row 33: *main colour bpdc on first stitch, contrasting colour bpdc on second stitch* repeat *to*, take both yarn when ss, 1sc, ch 1
I did 4 sets of repeat Row 32 to Row 33, do as many as you wish, depending on how wide you want the brim.

This is an extra large beanie and I used a fairly thin ply yarn hence the many rows and stitches.  If you are using an chunkier yarn, e.g. 8 ply onwards, you only need fewer stitches and rows.  The first row (the magic ring row) may only need 6 to 10 stitches.

Feel free to use this pattern but please refer it back to my url site.

Have fun :)

Saturday, 28 September 2013


A few days ago, someone asked me, "What is a soulmate?".
Now, I am puzzled by this because the person asking me has never married and I don't want to ruin anyone's perception on what is or what is not.  After all, I have 1 failed marriage under my belt.  Who is to say that my experience won't cloud my opinion?
So, my silly side decided to 'play'.
I sent him a definition of "soulmate" according to the Merriam Webster dictionary.

There is much background to this story than what is visible on the naked eye.  But for now, lets stick to the question.

Soulmate, is made up of 2 words.  The soul and the mate.  
Where is the mate when the soul is denied?
The mate only appears when the soul is recognised. 

Many think that soulmate(s) are persons with whom one has a feeling of deep or natural affinity, from sex to spiritual affinity. 
The current usage of the concept points to a romantic partner. 

However, there is a definition which is beautiful, it is Theosophic:

According to Theosophy, whose claims were modified by Edgar Cayce, God created androgynous souls—equally male and female.  Later theories postulate that the souls split into separate genders, perhaps because they incurred Karma while playing around on the Earth, or "separation from God.".  Over a number of reincarnations, each half seeks the other.  When all karmic debt is purged, the two will fuse back together and return to the ultimate.

In my experience, I have known persons who thought they had found their soul-mate...their spiritual soul-mate that is, as this seems to be the highest in the man-made classification.  Then something happens and they break up....so what happened?

A soul takes on physical form in a body to experience and learn.  
That creates a signature frequency, or vibration of that being. 
When two such beings resonate together it means that there is a spiritual-physical affinity, not either or, but spiritual-physical together. 
And so one effects the other through vibes even by living far away...even by being silent there can be a lot of communication between them. 
Even though they have different karma or life lessons, they are connected through their Higher Self.

If you mix the definition of marriage with the definition of soulmate(s), that's when your judgement is clouded.  
Marriage has nothing to do with finding a soulmate(s).  
Think about those who went into polygamy.  Those who married many times.  Then there are those who falls under the LGBT community category.  Whose to say that they have not found their soulmate(s)?
It is more important to focus on learning your lessons and connecting with your Higher Self than trying to sift through the dating site in the hope to find your "soulmate".

Barking at Shadows

It was a very quiet night...a distant bark from a dog, then quiet again. 
Rain was gently falling silently on the street. 
A puddle reflected the bright moon, a yellow, golden orb in the puddle. 
I was staring at the moon's reflection being broken into many tiny fragments when raindrops hit the puddle. 
Then, the images shiver into connecting together reflecting the whole moon...until the next drop....

The moon does not change, only the reflection does. 
The light in the heavens and the light in the puddle, both lights from one light. 
The light from the moon is already a reflection from the sun which is out of sight in the night.

Waves of light, too were hitting me and inner love and compassion awakened in my heart. 
Light and Love is all we are but we cling to our beliefs that we are the moon in the puddle, always being fragmented into many pieces through our prejudices...false beliefs and worldly desires. 

We are the Light...the moon reflecting light from the Source, from the sun. 
Light within light...it is all Light and Love.

The dog barked again...maybe seeing shadows somewhere. 
We all bark after shadows...until the sun rises and we awaken.

Thursday, 26 September 2013

The Finger That Points To The Moon

A postcard from Malta.

Soft cello music filled my apartment, undulating with the soft, cool morning breeze. 
Fingering my books soft, broken spine, I look at the Taoist shelve, with interpretations of the ancient Chinese classic, the I Ching. 
There was the Taoist I Ching, the Buddhist interpretation, the classical one, as well as a version with Biblical lines and interpretation. 
I was interested in the Taoist study, and so, I take the book in my hands, and it feels like shaking hands with a forgotten friend of long ago.

I smell the years in it, and notice my penciled notes, on the margins. 
I smiled softly, and together, with the breeze and the music, went back in time. 
But suddenly, I put it back, and take another one, and another one, like a frantic reader, looking for something, within the pages. 
I put everything back on the shelves, and sat down on the cushions, and let the music and the breeze be my only companions. 
I was immersed in the music....

The music stops, and I could only hear my breathing, and feel my heartbeat. 
I was me again, in the Now moment, the ever-present moment. 
I realize, I cannot read these books again, because I have changed...yes, I was not my past. 
They do not belong to the present 'me'...they do not talk to me anymore, only because, now, I am different.

They were only the finger, pointing at the moon. 
Why get fascinated about the finger or the hand that is pointing at the moon? 
I realized, it was always me after all...
I was the finger, the pointer, and the moon. 
A quantum reality, which cannot be expressed linearly.

When the sun comes up, we do not need to carry the candles anymore to find our way. 
When we awake, we can only remember the dream we had during the night.

Monday, 23 September 2013

Tied Up for a While

I have been really tied up for a while, literally, tied up.

I am in this knot, deep.  Got it bad and here to stay.  Love the smiles I get when they have their finished product and the fact that I can do this anywhere, unbounded by where the sewing machine is, I'm loving it more.

Some are still work in progress due to lack of yarn.  Patience is really tested when the yarn will take a while to arrive.  I hate unfinished things.  

Thanks to Clare at bobwilson123 for her very good tutorials to start me up hooking.  

Here are some of the hats done with her patterns, the basic beanie and criss cross stitch.

Trying out working with 2 different coloured yarns

Thursday, 12 September 2013

Life was a Choice and all about Choices

A big apology for the long overdue post.  August had been a whirlwind month of signing off the old energies that included blood ties and reuniting with our soul family.  Everyday was magical and even when we had to be apart, we knew we were always connected, as we are one.

This is a postcard from Malta, somewhere from the Mediterranean seas.

"Just dreamt of thousands of life possibilities...
of million of objects, all transforming into each other...
No right or wrong...
only contrasts...
only possibilities...
It is all a matter of choice...

What are you choosing? 

What do you choose you vibrate to?"

What is your choice?

Thursday, 4 July 2013

In Search for yourSELF

The Vitruvian Man by Leonardo da Vinci
There comes a time for every single human being,
to feel they're lost and stuck in life.

They read books from many that claimed they were once in the same limbo,
to the teachings of many ascended masters.
They change their physical self in the hope that this will win the crowd and they'll become a happier SELF.

Some quit their jobs,
travel to Nepal, Angkor Wat, and the likes,
looking for answers to cure their ailments.

But none ever thought that the answers are nowhere to be found,
that those trips to uncharted territories on earth are of pleasure only,
because the answers were already there,
before you even stepped out of the door to catch that plane.

If only you see beyond the appearance.
If only you realise the beauty in everything.
That there is consciousness in every existance,
no matter how small or how big it may be.
If only you opened your heart and look within.

Tuesday, 2 July 2013

Knit and Crochet Fair 2013

Last Sunday, despite her opposition defiance virus (I say yes, she says no, I say no,  she says yes, etc), we trot along to the "Festival Rajut Bandung 2013" (Bandung Knitting Fair 2013).

Getting there was an art in itself.  Thinking the highway would be a wise choice (less traffic since we have to pay to get on it), 5 minutes into the 'highway', we were stuck already.
Slowing down....
Getting slower...
Really really stuck!
 The "Under the Sea" display at "Festival Rajut Bandung 2013".

The competition, theme: Aquarium.  Of course no aquarium is complete without a Barbie doll.
Stuck again on the way home!
The haul.  Deliberate angle, I have a grey mohair mountain at the back.
Things to note:
- people don't sleep in on Sunday morning here....
- they're found on the highway...
- I'm going to be quite busy listening to lectures in the next few months...
- while knitting/crocheting....

Friday, 28 June 2013

Curtain Call

2013's Super Moon
Life is a stage where actors and actresses take different roles each time.
The script is already written but they have freedom to follow or improvise.

Question is: Who are the audience if we are the ones on the stage?

Thursday, 20 June 2013

"Man of Steel (3D)" Review

Watching a movie in a fully packed theater, everyone wearing 3D glasses and you coming in late with burgers, coffee and popcorn to share with your group, is certainly a unique experience in itself.

Book all the seats on your row and fill it in with your male friends.  The more the better, the younger the better.  The youngest I went with last night was two 10 year old boys and I suspected they are having the most fun out of the group.  The oldest was early 40's male and I strongly believe he enjoyed it as much and was thankful for the capuccino.

It's a pity I missed the first 5 minutes of it, thanks to the snack bar people who decided to upload pictures of our orders on their social networking pages while they were preparing it.  Yes, they were caught snapping pictures of my orders!  Ok, 13 popcorns, 10 burgers, 2 hotdogs, 10 coffees, come on, that's normal for a girl like me isn't it?  Work is stressful.

Thankfully we were just in time to catch the conflict between alive Jor El and Zod.  The first hour consists of a lot of flashbacks and at one point it got quite exhaustive.  The moment the beard was gone and the suit was on, that's where the jam packed action started and superman seriously got hotter.  With the beard he just looks more like Wolverine minus the Edward scissorhands apparatus.
That's Clark Kent before the cape.  Wolverine's brother perhaps in another franchise?
Ah, this picture is so smooth I would've slipped off that chin.
Be prepared to get shaken from the loud noises that comes from the surround sound in the second hour.  I tell you, I felt every POW and BAM that was happening on screen.  In fact, I feel a bit hung over today morning.  The second half of the movie was literally just hard core fighting and I really wondered how many people will get hurt if that actually happens in real life.  I prefer peace talks than jungle rule.

The ending was interesting however, (spoiler beware) Superman we once knew, never kills, but Kal El, just choose to snap off the neck instead of rescuing the family in danger.  Hmm.  Choices choices perhaps.  Easier to eradicate from root. Aye well chosen, the world is changing afterall.
Then, Kal El trashing the satelite drone because the government has been snooping on his communication line?  That reminds me of a certain PRISM and Snowden's confession.  Ooohh, the veil between Holywood and real life just became thinner and thinner.

Overall, I would say, see it for the action and technologies.  Don't expect anything new, we know the story for the longest time, maybe there are lights shed on certain issues, but nothing new.

Oh!  No more red undies display, that's new :)

Disclaimer:  I do not own any of the pictures above.

Tuesday, 18 June 2013

The Awakened Mind Part 3

When you learn to let go the shadow of your past, that's when you can move forward with your life experiences.

Here is the final part.  You can check part 1 and part 2 if you you missed out.

"To end this looong message, I’d like to finish with some notes I took while listening to Kryon that really spoke to me.  Maybe it will speak to you too.
  1.   Let go of fear!! You can’t un-know what you find out.  Go inside and pick up the knowledge of thousands lifetimes!! (I love this!!  I’m constantly doubting in myself, I ask myself if I’ll forget this one day or not and it really helps that someone reassures me that no, I won’t.)
  2.   Let go of fear of Gaia!  (Some people are afraid of being in the wrong place, in the wrong time, earthquakes, tsunami etc.  If you listen to your intuition, you’ll be at the right place at the right time.  Just don’t neglect your inner voice (that’s my other name for intuition).
  3.   Don’t think like a human!! (That’s the best of all. Humans are taught to fear, to always be scared, to analyze things in details.  Well, it turns out that it is a lot better to let yourself be guided by your intuition and have joy in your heart!!  Always...) Humans also like to project themselves in the future constantly... well guess what: There is no time!! You’re in the now and you stay with it!  (easier said than done though.. but listening to some Eckhart Tolle can help us with this)
  4.   Shine your light for yourself!!  Once you find something that works share it.  (Yay, I’m so proud of myself right now.  First time I’m sharing something that works, well at least with a group of people.  I’ve always done that in one to one conversations.)
Bring the light.  Show that to other people.  When you discover it, let it shine through you!!  Work on yourself.  Get out of drama and worry!
  5.   Expect good things in your life!!  Our consciousness is the most creating tool in the world. Expect to live longer and you will.  Expect happiness and you will be happy.  (Don’t expect from other people though... it’s all about the self, the only person we can ever change is ourself.)
  6.   Fall in love with yourself!!!  (Ah, that is a good one.  If only it was that easy.  When we fall in love with ourselves we treat ourselves like we treat the people we’re in love with, with love, we take care of them, we wish the best for them... lots of things to think of about this.)
  7.    Ask!  Always aks for whatever you want!!  (We don’t have to do it all by ourself.  Our guides are there for us.  And we are here for each other.  After all we are all one!!!)

This is the message I get over and over again, my first thought almost every morning, when I open my eyes and see the reflection of the leaves dancing on the sunlight surrounded by the sweet air...  We are all one!!  Nature, animals, people... We are all one... and I love you all!!!"

There's nothing to join here.  There's no club to enter.  There's no belief system to embrace.  
I simply connected with the me who remember and I'm connected to all....

The Awakened Mind Part 2

If you have read about chakras, you'll know that on our palms, there are minor chakras that can be used for energy works.  Light workers use their hands a lot to be a channel of the source's energy.  Believe it or not, we are equipped to heal ourselves if we know how to tap into the source's energy.  The fact that I'm allergic to so many things including pain killers had taught me to listen to my own body and try myriads of unconventional healing methods, instead of reaching out for the various brands of medicine.

Enjoy part 2...

"The problem is that like most people, I want it all and I want it now.  I often ask myself, if I know what I want, why can’t I have it now?  If thoughts are matter and we create our own reality through our thoughts, words and actions, why doesn’t it always manifests itself? And by “it” I mean the reality that I create, the one I think about.
Luckily for me (and unluckily for my impatient ego) I’ve found answers to these questions.  Of course I’m happy to share what I’ve found out with you.  You see, first of all it’s really important that you trust in yourself.  This is not one of the ending lines from the movies or the end of a tale that our parents used to tell us before we went to sleep.  It is indeed true, and they’ve been telling us this over and over again, it’s just that I don’t see that many parents put it into practice and unfortunately/fortunately (there are always at least two sides of seeing things) we tend to learn more from what we see than what we hear, more from experience than theoretical learning. But that’s another story.
So, to be back to our initial story, we can always have what we choose, because our thoughts are energy, energy creates matter and we can attract whatever we want or we don’t want, but unconsciously think about. (Have you ever wondered why you found yourself in the same situations over and over again?  Because we unconsciously attract the same patterns over and over again, because we haven’t let go of fear and because we found ourselves in a familiar situation we know how to treat.  When we say we don’t want something, we usually have it, because we focus our energy on the non-wanting part, so we attract what we fear the most.. haha tricky) But we can let ourselves out of it, if we think consciously. It’s not easy to do, but it can be done.  One of the things that might work is to monitor your thoughts and always think of the highest good.  Think positive is not just a slogan. 
The reasons why what we choose don’t appear immediately can be resumed as below.
1. because we don’t know what we want => ask yourself the questions, what is that you want
2. because we keep on changing our minds => choose the same thing over and over again
3. because we think it is too good to be true
4. because we can’t decide what’s best for us
5. because we want to have guarantees ahead of time that this is the right choice

So we should really take time to ask ourselves what we want and ask for it with our whole heart and then let it go.  One way or another it will come to us.  And I’m talking particularly about women since most of us (or well the feminine side of us) wants to have guarantees so ahead of time that we don’t fully concentrate on the present moment.  We can’t decide what’s best for us right now.. and I’m one of the worst, but getting better with time.

Another thing that I wanted to share with you is my healing experiences on myself. I’ve done tonglen on other people too, but I can’t say I’ve cured them, but myself yes, I have done that.  I think it’s my connection mind-body-spirit that plays a big role in that.  I always ask my body what it wants, from simple things such as eating (and it doesn’t always reply Ice-cream), veggies and fruits are good too, but sometimes pizza is good too… everything is good as long as it makes me feel good.  By asking I almost stopped drinking at all.  My body never requires alcohol.  “It makes me sad”, it tells me.  “Ok, as you like” I reply.  I also ask my body if it feels like exercising.  Yesterday it told me, let’s do some yoga. I do kundalini yoga, and I’m stuck in the second chakra.  But yesterday I said, “Ok, if that’s what you want, why don’t we start by the first one, we both know we’ll enjoy and then do to the second one.”  
I ended up doing 30 minutes of the 1st chakra and one hour of the third one.  I hadn’t plan starting it but it was really really great.  I finished at midnight and slept like a baby.  
To please my mind, I read; that’s my mind’s favorite past time. Now I’ve started to ask my guide about the book I should read.  In the past, I used to read a lot and always finish the book I had started.  Now, I don’t mind that much letting things seemingly unfinished.  When I start reading a book I know I will always find the answers I’m looking for.  Sometimes the book has finished its purpose before coming to an end... and I should let it go.  I wish that with time I start following the same practice on other things and ultimately people, letting go when they’re no longer good for me.  It’s like wasting my time with a book that will no longer bring me what I need, when there are plenty of other books out there which can.  And of course every day I take care that my soul is happy… music, nature and meditation, that’s what my soul wants.  It’s not that hard having balance after you’ve found what works for you.  And in that way I can find health too... but I must be careful of self-sabotaging.
I’ll explain. Once your body-mind-spirit are in balance the risk of being sick is really low.. unless… you have been wanting to be sick for a long time (not directly, but for example, you’ve been so sad depressed you have unconsciously or consciously wished not to live in this planet any longer during a long period of time) or if you haven’t listened to your body requirements it would be a way of your body telling you to slow down or to tell you you’re not paying attention.  (That’s what happened to me two weeks ago.  I had totally forgotten I had anemia and one day my body refused to get out of my bed and made me realize how much I was tiring my body by not taking any kind of medication... iron or anything else.  So I just stayed there, on my bed, listening to my heart beating a lot faster than normal to fill my body and brain with the required amount of blood.  I realized how stupid I had been, I said I was sorry to my heart and I went to see a doctor.).  And third sometimes you wish to be sick to take some time for yourself...a day off, and that’s totally ok, too.  BUT, if you don’t like being sick and you get a bacteria in a subway that make you have fever and cough... and you don’t like that, well, you can make yourself better just with meditation.  I should know, I did that 3 times on myself and it worked overnight, all times.  And it’s just 3 times, because in 3 years I’ve only been sick that much and it lasted only a day.  Usually what I do is picture my disease with a different color (for example, my tonsils with red light and then I imagine every white cell in my body getting bigger and bigger, they surround the red light until it dissipates and I use my fingertips to let it out of myself.  Before I surround myself with a white light and I ask my guide to be present.  I imagine him on top of my head... but not always... actually none of this is necessary, it’s just what works best for you.  I adapted Michael Newton’s meditation in the end of Destiny of Souls and I use my hands in the end to touch the place where it hurts.  I can feel a warm energy coming from them and then I go to sleep with the intention of being healed when I wake up in the morning.  My mind/body/soul does the rest.  There was a time when I was pretty sick with high fever and I woke up every two hours during the night and repeated the meditation.  My body temperature dropped constantly, 1 degree every 30 minutes until I was healed. It was great!!!
Of course I’m not telling you to believe me, I’m saying Try it for yourself!!!  There is nothing more powerful than you and you can do miracles.  
You are creating your own destiny and that in itself is already a miracle.  Maybe this won’t work for you...but it works for me, everyone is different, but if you carefully listen to yourself and follow your intuition you can do and choose whatever you want... choices are limitless.  You are doing it now, anyway, the questions is, are you doing it consciously?  I am not doing it consciously all the time either, but well at least I’m trying. ;)"

Did you enjoy part 2?  If you missed part 1, read it here.

The Awakened Mind Part 1

A good friend of ours wrote an insightful entry a few weeks back.  Many of us are going through the same thing that she does without being aware.
She is in her twenties but yet her thoughts are beyond age restriction.  Who says maturity comes with age?  When they say age is just a number, it really is just what it is, numbering system to mark your three dimensional existence on earth.

"I don’t exactly know what I am going to write in this page, my purpose is to share what I know so far. I never thought writing what I know or what I think I do, just because I believe that every person has their own truths that come at their own time, but today I changed my mind, for two reasons. First, I woke up this morning finding a sweet message from a dear friend  who told me for the nth time to follow my intuition and share what I know. Second, another dear friend of mine asked my personal “feeling” about a matter because I have a strong connection with myself. So the reasons I’m writing this, besides sharing, is to hopefully make you realize that we all can share a strong bond with ourselves, even though we believe that we don’t sometimes and maybe to inspire someone. I feel I owe this to every person that has inspired me with their stories.  Nothing of these things I’m about to say is new, but from my little personal experience that I have, I know that sometimes we just need a little push, or confirmation to believe. I’m not writing here to convince anyone either. This is my truth so far, and I’m willingly to change it, if someday, another truth will appear in front of me that is contradictory to this one. But for now, this feels true to me, so as I often say, what feels true to you it is indeed true. I would be a terrible liar if I didn’t apply that to myself in the first place.  

I’d like to start with a story, taken from the book “The Knight with the Rusty Armor”.  For those people who are not familiar with the story (a big spoiler here): there was this knight who was so used to fighting dragons and saving princesses with his sword and armor that he didn't bother taking his armor at all of him. Of course that didn't please his wife who asked him to choose between her and their son and his armor. He chose them or course, but the moment he tried to take the armor off him, he couldn't  He had been using it for so long that the armor became him.  (hehe, does this speaks to you? It speaks to me a great deal ;)) 

He tried to force it out of him, but he couldn’t. So finally he decided to go and see Merlin to help him. Merlin told him that to get rid of the armor he should follow the path of truth and go in and out 3 castles: The castle of Silence, The castle of Knowledge and The castle of Will and Dare. He didn’t need to take the sword with him because there wouldn’t be any dragons and he could use the help of a pigeon and a squirrel. (..tough work making the knight believe he could talk to animals, but well not an impossible thing to do either). 
In the first castle the knight had to go alone. He felt betrayed, but he had no choice. He discovered he was afraid to be alone, and he cried himself a lot of times to sleep but when he got used to it he started to hear a little voice inside him that called himself (Sam… why not?) and told the knight that he was him. When he started to listen to Sam, his little voice inside him, he found his way out of the castle. He found out that all the tears he cried during the time that he was in this castle, had removed part of his armor. He felt lighter and began once more to climb the path of truth until he found himself outside the castle of Knowledge. 
This time squirrel and pigeon went with him inside the castle. In the castle of Knowledge the more they were the better it was, he didn’t have to do it alone. He called Merlin for help too. Indeed all these castles had no doors. The door appeared when the truth was found. But this castle had no lights either. Just an inscription that said 'Knowledge is the light by which you shall find your way' … guess what happened next? Well I won’t tell you, you have to find out yourself.
The truth is that I’m in this castle myself, but I guess you guessed that in the castle of Will and Dare he found nothing more or less than his greatest fears.  So, he had to confront that dragon without his sword and got burned more than once... ouch... familiar story isn’t it?  But the knight did find his way through the castle, and that was it.  He got rid of the armor.  The Beginning.  (not, The End. How great is that?)

When I read that, I was happy to discover that personally I was out of the Castle of Silence (Yaaayyy!!) and I was inside the Castle of Knowledge. I had identified my problem, discerning need from love   and I learned I didn’t have to do it alone anymore. 
I was so happy!!! The question I was asking myself when I started to read this book, was: “Now that I know what my problem is (one of them at least) that I am an emotionally dependent person, how long will it take until I get rid of it? Until I become independent from anyone, until I learn to love unconditionally, to let go completely, not get attached to the outcome or to anyone and go with the flow? “ 
When I asked this question I didn’t realize that another quest was out there for me... patience. The first step is made, but the cure can take years. It took me 2 years to go in and come out the castle of Silence, and I just got in the castle of Knowledge and maybe it will take me 2 other years there, or maybe 10 or maybe this life will end before I can get out, but I tell myself that it’s ok. At least I’ll die trying and why I’m there, maybe I can do the castle of Will and Dare as well… Uhh that sounds like it’s not possible, because as long as I don’t let go of the outcome I’ll always be afraid of losing something... so I’ll go with one step at a time...."

To be continued in The Awakened Mind Part 2....

The Harvest

Mandrake look alike.  Snap off the leaves as soon as you finish taking pictures.

The weird and wonderful world of organic carrots.  Do not cramp these babies in one area that they turn out  very very special.  We had a sponge Bob version in the first haul. 
Although they are very tasty without any embellishment,  the inner cook in me wanted more.  Roasted with olive oil, sprinkle of rosemary and thyme with some salt and pepper.

Tuesday, 4 June 2013

Waiting for the Longest Time

Sunday morning, glorious sunshine and happy hearts.  The song to sing today was somewhat very appropriate for this situation: various Acapella versions of Billy Joel's "For the Longest Time", the original, the Overtones' & the latest Glee's.  
Question is: "When to pick these babies??"

Tuesday, 28 May 2013

Surprise Gift!

As if one can predict one's own predicament, hence beware of what you say, I was swamped with work on my birthday.  
When you get to my age, after the siblings and your child singing happy birthday on We Wish You A Merry Christmas tune, the next ones to be wishing you birthday are: your suppliers (so you continue to work for them), your insurance company (may I live long and not claim my insurance prematurely), and the ones usually being real nice and attentive are the bankers (so forever will you invest with them).  These are truly sinful indulgence from those lovely boy bankers.  I need a diet plan STAT!

"Epic" Review

Yesterday was dark and gloomy, the supposedly dry season took a sudden turn into what looked like a start of the monsoon season.  That old rule of months ending with "ber" like September, October, November, and December are cold, windy, rainy months still hold true.  But now we get those "ber" months in non "ber" months.  Sunny and hot one day and cold and rainy the next.

After an epic fail of showing nicely in front of my old relatives (who showed up unexpectedly, we're talking about people who live in another country and out of town, coming in unnoticed and they think that's just awesome, NOT), especially when I was so busy, I might've missed out combing my hair (ok, not might've but actually did not).

On to the review!  The little girl started bothering me about seeing "Epic" since she saw online that it premiered on 24th May.  So, that was 4 days of nagging and screaming about "Epic".  I used that opportunity to teach her about going with the flow and letting go of obsession on outcome.  I would say that it's the hardest lesson to learn and not surprised that many adults aren't able to do that still.

Set during the day at the time of the summer solstice which coincide with the once in 100 years' lunar eclipse at the night of the full moon, immediately throws the audience for a magical ride.
Despite the deja-vous that I had from certain scenes, like oh, that's like "Honey, I Shrunk the Kids", or hmm, that feels like "Alice in Wonderland", I must say that when you watch animation in 3D, there are so many things to focus on that it just takes your breath away and this movie is exactly that, the backdrop were the lush forest somewhere out there and with it, were all the weird and wonderful creatures that inhibit the magical place.  Queen Tara for example was so much Barbie like that I wonder, is that really how Beyonce would look like, animated?
Queen Tara choosing the pod.
The messages that has been coming through to our little audiences are these:
- "just because you haven't seen something, it doesn't mean it's not there", Bomba the Stomper (Jason Sudeikis)
- "many leaves, one tree, we're all connected", Ronin the Leafmen (Colin Farrell)
- "I'm going to destroy the forest, I'm sick of balance, the forest belong to the darkness, you can't stop the rot", Mandrake (Christoph Waltz)
- "you're here for a reason, sometimes the connection aren't clear", Queen Tara (Beyonce)
- "if our world dies, your world will die, too", Nod (Josh Hutcherson)

Now, in light to the recent Public Disclosure on UFO, I feel that our children are being prepared for something huge.  As seen in the "Croods" before as well, the same messages prevail.  It may be another decade until we actually being shown anything solid, to do with colonies living in another dimension, vibrating at a higher frequency than us, but these animators are laying the brickwork for our kids so they won't be surprised.  We are so waiting for that day to come, but remember, only those ones who believe will experience the magic first. 

Disclaimer: I do not own the pictures above.