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"The problem is that like most people, I want it all and I want it now. I often ask myself, if I know what I want, why can’t I have it now? If thoughts are matter and we create our own reality through our thoughts, words and actions, why doesn’t it always manifests itself? And by “it” I mean the reality that I create, the one I think about.
Luckily for me (and unluckily for my impatient ego) I’ve found answers to these questions. Of course I’m happy to share what I’ve found out with you. You see, first of all it’s really important that you trust in yourself. This is not one of the ending lines from the movies or the end of a tale that our parents used to tell us before we went to sleep. It is indeed true, and they’ve been telling us this over and over again, it’s just that I don’t see that many parents put it into practice and unfortunately/fortunately (there are always at least two sides of seeing things) we tend to learn more from what we see than what we hear, more from experience than theoretical learning. But that’s another story.
So, to be back to our initial story, we can always have what we choose, because our thoughts are energy, energy creates matter and we can attract whatever we want or we don’t want, but unconsciously think about. (Have you ever wondered why you found yourself in the same situations over and over again? Because we unconsciously attract the same patterns over and over again, because we haven’t let go of fear and because we found ourselves in a familiar situation we know how to treat. When we say we don’t want something, we usually have it, because we focus our energy on the non-wanting part, so we attract what we fear the most.. haha tricky) But we can let ourselves out of it, if we think consciously. It’s not easy to do, but it can be done. One of the things that might work is to monitor your thoughts and always think of the highest good. Think positive is not just a slogan.
The reasons why what we choose don’t appear immediately can be resumed as below.
1. because we don’t know what we want => ask yourself the questions, what is that you want
2. because we keep on changing our minds => choose the same thing over and over again
3. because we think it is too good to be true
4. because we can’t decide what’s best for us
5. because we want to have guarantees ahead of time that this is the right choice
So we should really take time to ask ourselves what we want and ask for it with our whole heart and then let it go. One way or another it will come to us. And I’m talking particularly about women since most of us (or well the feminine side of us) wants to have guarantees so ahead of time that we don’t fully concentrate on the present moment. We can’t decide what’s best for us right now.. and I’m one of the worst, but getting better with time.
Another thing that I wanted to share with you is my healing experiences on myself. I’ve done tonglen on other people too, but I can’t say I’ve cured them, but myself yes, I have done that. I think it’s my connection mind-body-spirit that plays a big role in that. I always ask my body what it wants, from simple things such as eating (and it doesn’t always reply Ice-cream), veggies and fruits are good too, but sometimes pizza is good too… everything is good as long as it makes me feel good. By asking I almost stopped drinking at all. My body never requires alcohol. “It makes me sad”, it tells me. “Ok, as you like” I reply. I also ask my body if it feels like exercising. Yesterday it told me, let’s do some yoga. I do kundalini yoga, and I’m stuck in the second chakra. But yesterday I said, “Ok, if that’s what you want, why don’t we start by the first one, we both know we’ll enjoy and then do to the second one.”
I ended up doing 30 minutes of the 1st chakra and one hour of the third one. I hadn’t plan starting it but it was really really great. I finished at midnight and slept like a baby.
To please my mind, I read; that’s my mind’s favorite past time. Now I’ve started to ask my guide about the book I should read. In the past, I used to read a lot and always finish the book I had started. Now, I don’t mind that much letting things seemingly unfinished. When I start reading a book I know I will always find the answers I’m looking for. Sometimes the book has finished its purpose before coming to an end... and I should let it go. I wish that with time I start following the same practice on other things and ultimately people, letting go when they’re no longer good for me. It’s like wasting my time with a book that will no longer bring me what I need, when there are plenty of other books out there which can. And of course every day I take care that my soul is happy… music, nature and meditation, that’s what my soul wants. It’s not that hard having balance after you’ve found what works for you. And in that way I can find health too... but I must be careful of self-sabotaging.
I’ll explain. Once your body-mind-spirit are in balance the risk of being sick is really low.. unless… you have been wanting to be sick for a long time (not directly, but for example, you’ve been so sad depressed you have unconsciously or consciously wished not to live in this planet any longer during a long period of time) or if you haven’t listened to your body requirements it would be a way of your body telling you to slow down or to tell you you’re not paying attention. (That’s what happened to me two weeks ago. I had totally forgotten I had anemia and one day my body refused to get out of my bed and made me realize how much I was tiring my body by not taking any kind of medication... iron or anything else. So I just stayed there, on my bed, listening to my heart beating a lot faster than normal to fill my body and brain with the required amount of blood. I realized how stupid I had been, I said I was sorry to my heart and I went to see a doctor.). And third sometimes you wish to be sick to take some time for yourself...a day off, and that’s totally ok, too. BUT, if you don’t like being sick and you get a bacteria in a subway that make you have fever and cough... and you don’t like that, well, you can make yourself better just with meditation. I should know, I did that 3 times on myself and it worked overnight, all times. And it’s just 3 times, because in 3 years I’ve only been sick that much and it lasted only a day. Usually what I do is picture my disease with a different color (for example, my tonsils with red light and then I imagine every white cell in my body getting bigger and bigger, they surround the red light until it dissipates and I use my fingertips to let it out of myself. Before I surround myself with a white light and I ask my guide to be present. I imagine him on top of my head... but not always... actually none of this is necessary, it’s just what works best for you. I adapted Michael Newton’s meditation in the end of Destiny of Souls and I use my hands in the end to touch the place where it hurts. I can feel a warm energy coming from them and then I go to sleep with the intention of being healed when I wake up in the morning. My mind/body/soul does the rest. There was a time when I was pretty sick with high fever and I woke up every two hours during the night and repeated the meditation. My body temperature dropped constantly, 1 degree every 30 minutes until I was healed. It was great!!!
Of course I’m not telling you to believe me, I’m saying Try it for yourself!!! There is nothing more powerful than you and you can do miracles.
You are creating your own destiny and that in itself is already a miracle. Maybe this won’t work for you...but it works for me, everyone is different, but if you carefully listen to yourself and follow your intuition you can do and choose whatever you want... choices are limitless. You are doing it now, anyway, the questions is, are you doing it consciously? I am not doing it consciously all the time either, but well at least I’m trying. ;)"
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